I struggle with a scarcity mindset: I don't have enough time, so need to overschedule my life. I'll never get to experience this chocolate cheesecake again, so I need to eat two (err...three) slices. Or, my worst gremlin...if she gets that success, it somehow belittles or prevents me from mine.
I hate myself when I think this way. It is the root of the mommy wars and most of the negative elements of my life.
I know I'm happiest when I help others succeed and viewing the world as abundance has opened so many doors for me. But, I'm retraining a lifetime of thinking. It's a constant struggle. I know I'm not alone, which is why I wanted to share this passage from Lynne Twist's The Soul of Money:
For me, and for many of us, our first waking thought of the day is, 'I didn't get enough sleep.' The next one is 'I don't have enough time.' Whether true or not, that thought of not enough occurs to us automatically before we even think to question or examine it... We don't have enough exercise. We don't have enough work. We don't have enough profits. We don't have enough power. We don't have enough weekends. Of course, we don't have enough money - ever...
Before we even sit up in bed, before our feet touch the floor, we're already inadequate, already behind, already losing, already lacking something. And by the time we go to bed at night, our minds race with a litany of what we didn't get, or didn't get done, that day... What begins as a simple expression of the hurried life, or even the challenged life, grows into the great justification for an unfulfilled life.
Stop yourself tonight. Relish in the things you did get done. Give yourself a much-needed break. You are enough.