I ugly sobbed on Saturday. I knew something was up - I felt restless and preoccupied with food. My default is to numb: indulge in too many carbs or glasses of wine, or be overly busy, so I don't have time to face my emotions.
Instead, on Saturday, I just let myself feel. I was lonely. The lonely that comes from starting a business solo and moving to a new city after 17 years in your old. It felt scary. I sobbed with every inch of my body the whole way home from Trader Joes.
Incredibly, the world did not crash. In fact, afterward, I felt incredible, alive and present. I noticed the beauty around me and able to connect with Joe during date night.
It's ok to cry. Or feel scared, jealous, or disappointed. That's part of being human. This week, give into it. Emotions can't stay strong when you face them. In fact, they've been proven to dissipate in around five minutes.
As Brene Brown says: "We cannot selectively numb emotions, when we numb the painful emotions, we also numb the positive emotions."
You can do anything for 5 minutes.